During high school, there was such a thing as cliques; and if one wanted to be seen and known, being part of a clique was a good place to start.
a small group of people, with shared interests or other features in common, who spend time together and do not readily allow others to join them.
Today, cliques have taken on a much fancier name: squad. I wasn’t part of a clique then, and I can’t really say I have or am part of any squad now. My closest friends are so unique, so diverse (it is as though I picked each one from a different planet) that am not sure that if I locked them up in a room for an hour, the conversation would progress beyond “Hi, how are you? ” This post is not about cliques and squads though.
I am a deeply sentimental person, and like all sentimental people, I easily get attached to things and people more strongly than I think is good for me. Call it naivety if you like but my first thoughts when I meet a person that I instantly connect with are “this person is going to be in my life forever.” Of course I have been disappointed! Terribly disappointed, more times than I care to count. I strongly believe it is for this reason that God spared me the painful, cold world of heartbreaks and exes. I am a girl that loves wholly and unreservedly; and I would definitely not survive a day in this world where the person you loved the most suddenly turns into a stranger! I know this solely based on how deeply I have been affected each time I realized that the person I called friend had suddenly or over time turned into a stranger with a familiar face. I could smile and sweetly say hi to this stranger, sometimes even go as far as hugging, but I could not bring myself to laugh as carefreely as I had always done around her. I could talk about the weather or a political issue, but couldn’t share my joys and pains as I had so often done in the past. It is all too familiar; this kind of feeling. A friend is slowly slipping away and there isn’t much I can do except painfully accept it. I have been through this so many times and yet it doesn’t hurt any less knowing that I can no longer hold a five minute conversation with someone that I once spoke to for hours and hours on end. I know there are people that don’t blink twice over such things, but like I said, I am a deeply sentimental person.
Over the length of my two decade life, I have been taught a lifetime lesson: CHANGE. Seasons change. Technology changes. People change. My friends change. And ultimately, I am no exception: I change. I am not the Suzan I was four, five years ago and that explains why I cannot ably maintain the conversations that I flawlessly held back then. Caught amidst the tidal waves of this thing called change, it is comforting and revitalizing to know that there’s a constant in my life: my Lord, Jesus Christ. To know that I can always count on Him no matter the day, the hour, the curcumstance is like cold water washing over me on a hot day. To know that His love never changes, that His mercy endures forever is soothing balm to any wounds left behind by the tides of change. His Word is ever true, and His Word says thus:
Jesus Christ [is] the same yesterday, today, and forever. [Hebrews 13:8]
And even more , He has given me the kind of assurance that the words “Best Friends Forever” could never give me. This is the assurance:
For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” So we may boldly say: ” The LORD is my helper; I will not fear.What can man do to me?” [Hebrews 13:5-6]
HE WILL NEVER LEAVE NOR FORSAKE ME! Sunshine, Rain, Hail, Thunder or Lightning He is with me. Day or night, He is there. Regardless of all that may surround me, I can rest in the knowledge that He is with me. Many have walked into my life and then walked out, many still are walking while others walk out; but He is here to stay: He is the friend I will never lose.
Because of this assurance, for those that somehow find a way into my life, I continue to love them fiercely, wholly, purely and with no reservations whatsoever. I use my today wisely, letting each one of them how special they are and how much they mean to me; because I am not certain where the waves of change will blow tomorrow and then it might be too late to let them know.
Thank you for reading! God abundantly bless you for me.