So I eventually got a job… finally. I was so excited about it. Over the moon. Ecstatic. Euphoric. I mean this is something I had waited for, for a whole year; praying, crying, hoping, getting to the brink of giving up and then starting the process all over again. Fast forward, a few months in to the job, I think I am slowly starting to understand why so many people never really get to do the things they really like and how so easy it is to get sucked into a routine, only to wake up one day to realize that the dreams you had, remained just that; dreams.
Let’s use myself as an example: I love writing. I look at events and situations around me and the first thought in my mind is “that would make a great story!” At any given moment, I have various disorganized pieces of a story scampering around in my head, waiting to be written down somewhere. Most importantly, I have this dream that someday, I will write a book and get it published, and then I will write another book and another and another until I have at least a tiny shelf full of my own writings. But here I am, in my early twenties, already feeling like I can’t catch even a minute to just start on any one of the stories in my head. Between my Monday to Friday, 8am to 5pm job and travelling on weekends to see my friends and family or staying in to do general cleaning and house work, writing just seems to be one of those things that I can keep postponing to tomorrow.
And that’s just what happens to the most of us; we keep hoping we will be a little less busy tomorrow, the next week or the next month. We keep thinking that by then, we will be a little more motivated and enthusiastic about starting on the process of making our dreams a reality. We lie to ourselves that we still have enough time, that we still need to make a little more money and gain a little more experience. We convince ourselves that we are waiting for the right time, that we are still getting ready. But week after week, we get busier and busier, more responsibilities get thrust upon us and the pressure only keeps rising. And then before we know it, we are caught in a never ending earn and spend cycle, our dreams relegated to a smaller corner in our brains.
It scares me to think that I might never see the things I have dreamt about my whole life come to life, that I might never make an impact in this world, that my life story might never have anything out of the ordinary. Not because I didn’t have the chance to, but because I chose to go with the flow; I chose to fit in because it way much easier and more straight forward than standing out. It makes me shudder to think that on that day, when I stand before my master, I will, with shamefacedness, present the same exact number of talents He bestowed upon me, with the lame excuse that I simply had no time to multiply them, that I was busy trying to survive or worst of all, that I couldn’t find enough people to like whatever I was doing. We are made for so much more than finish school, get a great job, live in a big house and make tons of money. I know it and so do you. Those dreams inside us, they were placed there by God to remind us that we are more than the world presents to us. And yes, those dreams may be scary and way bigger than us, but what’s a dream if doesn’t challenge every fibre of your being?
So just take a moment and ask yourself; are you really living? Or are you just part of the rat-race and an endless routine that most people confuse with living? There is never going to be a better time than now for you to start: whether it is writing, painting, singing, fashion; whatever your passion is, do not bury it. Spend a few nights awake, sacrifice a few pleasures and find some solitude if need be; whatever it takes, give in your all, because a few years from now, you’re going back to look at your life and oh, how heartbreaking it will be when you realize that you could have done more but you didn’t. So choose to start today… with the little you’ve got, start. And keep at it no matter what. When those dreams eventually come to life, there’s no one going to be more proud of you than yourself.